Christmas is over but I didn’t blog about it. I wasn’t even able to greet my readers. Anyway, its over and done. After months of anticipation, greeting Merry Christmas is already passé(atleast for the next few months). Anyway, I posted my wishlist on friendster and a few friendsters reacted that THAT list was something. Haha! That’s why it’s called a “wish” list. A wish is defined as impossible to come true. Anyway, not even a single wish came true. I just asked for a few cds, a Nokia 6600, a laptop, new car, and a diamond engagement ring!!!(+ etc,etc, etc, and etc) JUST. Hehe. Even Santa couldn’t grant them but I still wish he did. (wink wink)

     Gifts and money---I didn’t receive much of ‘em. I can say that this has been the most giftless and penniless Christmas ever for me. But hear me people, this year has been the merriest of all. Simply because I realized this year that there are more important things than the stuff I usually get. Relationships have become dearer to me. My family, friends, and even strangers. I came to know that nurturing good relationships with people can lead to something “great”. I’ve learned to become grateful for every person that God brings to my life. May it be an old friend, chatmate,a long lost relative, classmate, the girl who sits next to me in mrt, or just about almost everybody I meet. I became conscious of how I could reach out to them. And with this attitude, my materialism has been lessened. Spending time with people is more important so I try to listen to those in need and help them in anyway I can. Of course, in a way that glorifies nothing and no one but God.

This year is also the merriest because I’ve found a friend whom I know will love the real me no matter what. I don’t want to make much kwento here but God has been especially good to me. (am I so obvious?!hehe) It really pays when you know how to wait. I’ve always believed in the words: Good things come to those who wait. And really, good things will really come your way if you wait not just for “someone” but in everything God asks you to. Basta, TRUE LOVE WAITS.

      That’s just about it. My MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS. Short but sweet(ewww). Simple but true. I don’t want to write a lengthier blog. There’s always a next time.

posted by: blueberry010 at December 28, 2003 21:35 | link | comments (5) |

     I finally quit my job just after 6 days. It wasn’t a painful decision. I was actually glad that I’m out of it. I shouldn’t have accepted it in the first place. I knew it wasn’t for me. I just thought that maybe God was just bringing me there, yeah, for a reason. And that I think was to make me realize that I’m really not for TV. Ha! I never did get myself excited about it. In fact, I just felt so indifferent.  I knew from the start that that wasn’t a good decision because I committed to so many things but then I accepted it. I didn’t even pray hard about it. I just told God that if it really was for me, I would be accepted it. And so it did it happen. Who was I to set for myself and God a condition? I think it should have been Him.

     Anyway, I’m finally out. I felt so free!!! I didn’t have to go through a lot of thinking. After our first meeting I wanted to quit because I knew I just couldn’t do it. Okay, my job is so easy as a researcher. I’ve only been tasked to research using the Internet. Clicking. copying then pasting is just so easy.  I mean, any grade schooler could do that. Haha! But you know what, I just couldn’t do it. Not that I don’t know how to use the search engines. It’s just that my heart’s not into it. It never was. I had to drag myself into doing those things. Add to that, our time was so unpredictable. I didn’t have a call time. I just had to wait for my teammates to message me then come to meet them. I thought that would be great since I didn’t really need to wake up early in the morning. But what I hate most about it was that they didn’t always come on time. Our meeting didn’t always start on time. The rest of us had to wait for 2 hours or so. I know they’re busy. I said to myself maybe work and life in this network is like that. And I knew that I wouldn’t like it. I didn’t like it the first time I was there.  I’m the type who definitely follows a schedule. I wouldn’t want time to be wasted coz a lot more meaningful things can be done. Apparently, some people aren’t like that. Or maybe they’re just that. Maybe life there is THAT  (Basta, ayoko talaga.)   

      I even psyched myself to finally get into the job because the “pay” was so okay. (Or so they say). But I knew that would always be wrong. To stay in a place  that doesn’t make you happy but merely gives you the money. Doing that could have made me into a slave for money and work. I am for God. I always want to include God in my endeavors and to glorify Him in everything I do. I know staying there for the money would do no good to me even if it can make my ends meet.

    Where do I go now? I don’t know. I still don’t know where God wants me to be. I have ideas as to where and how but I still have to pray hard about it. It’s just my prayer that He’ll provide me with a job wherein I could excel, be happy, satisfied, and be able to extend His Kingdom. I know He will. Coz I believe and I trust.   

 

mode | ouch!

music | barenaked ladies - pinch me

posted by: blueberry010 at December 23, 2003 14:48 | link | comments (1) |

i hate this.

posted by: blueberry010 at December 18, 2003 01:56 | link | comments (2) |

      What happened to me yesterday was so abrupt. I couldn’t explain how I felt. Maybe I was overwhelmed. Or maybe I was just shocked. Everything happened so fast. What was it? I finally got a job! No. It isn’t a 9-5 job. It’s something a lot of people dream of getting as a job(I think…a number tells me that they want that job. I’m a researcher for a TV network. (Hint:I’m a kapamilya now). But I never thought it would be that easy. It was so informal. My friend Chris just asked me to come with him because a new show will start soon and they still need a researcher. I was opting for that other position(not really) but the other researcher for the show that my friend is in backed out and needed a replacement. He then told the producer that I was with him and he(prod) said “okay”. Just that! And that was over the phone. I was like…whoa! seryoso ba to?! whats my status now? Even the new researchers aren’t still sure if they’re in or not. I just waited but didn’t really expect anything. I was really half-hearted about it but I told God that if He really wants me to be in this field, I’ll be accepted. I just told Him that. I didn’t hear from Him though. It all happened so quick.

      I didn’t expect it really. I was neither prepared for it. I was all set to find work this coming new year because I still wanna rest and I have so many things to do for the church and my social life. I had them all planned. I even couldn’t sleep because I was so excited pouring my heart and remaining time with those activities. And now this.

I’m taking this as an opportunity to build relationships for God. I know there is a purpose why He placed me there. I still cant get myself thrilled about it yet. Yet. The network is so big. I might get lost. I might get stuck in an elevator with my celeb crush Echo(wehehe!).

         This is so new for me. I know my lifestyle’s gonna change a bit. I don’t have a hold of my schedule anymore. I know its gonna be erratic. I know nothing.

        I’m accepting things even if I’m blind. I’m taking this as a challenge.

posted by: blueberry010 at December 13, 2003 21:37 | link | comments (4) |

…then suddenly it became your fault. why do some people blame things on you when in fact it is them who forgot to do what was supposed to be done?? they  make you feel guilty. they’d tell you you have no right to answer back. they think you’re snapping at them. but you’re just airing you’re side. coz you’ve learned to be proactive. you were educated to question. people just think you’re rude. now tell me, what do you think you’re doing??? who do they think they are??? why is life sometimes like this???  

posted by: blueberry010 at December 08, 2003 23:40 | link | comments (1) |

i miss blogging. every time i experience unusual and even trivial things i just "blog" in my mind. and when im in front of the computer, i just forget what im supposed to write about. bad. sayang. oh well. i still have lots of time. im still a bum and enjoying every minute of it. really. i am happy. always. somebody always puts a smile on my face. i am loved. loved by my Father.

and so...here are some snippets. i know you'd be bored again if i write another lengthy entry...but tell me if you dont mind..i'll write a longer one..hehe..

• i went out with my girlfriends net and claire..i cant remember the last time we went out..we did nothing new..went window shopping again..i bought a new sandals, netty a new pair of jeans, and cleng a new sandals too..and oh! i bought a wallet..really nice...oh men..i wanna go to tutuban...anyone??anyone willing to take me to a shopping spree? (hint hint)
• im excited that a new WIRED edition is coming out this december..just so you know what it is..its our youth's newsletter..the first time i seriously conceptualized it, i got so excited and  couldnt sleep...hope it turns out okay..or way better than okay..excellent...please God..this is for you..
• i miss my besty cece...she's so kenis! she wouldnt send me the things i need..grrrrr..some bestfriend...hehe..joke!
• my nephew nav is so pogi while my cousin juliana is so cute!! oooh..babies!!i love babies!! i want my own!!! not anytime soon...
• i dont feel so well..i dont wanna be sick..we ran out of ascorbic acid..dad forgot to buy..tsktsktsk..
• my gradeschool batchmates are so kainis..they're ignoring my proposal..bahala sila! wehehe..and i thought im the batch president...harhar!
• i need to change my friendster pic..napupuno inbox ko!!hahahaha!so many requests...hehe...
• i need to finalize my wishlist so you people would know what to give me (hint hint)  im so makapal!
• my church friends and i are....oooops! dont need to broadcast it here......hehe...
• how much is the entrance to star city???
• people tell me that i've lost a lot of weight...what??a lot?? hehe..just kidding...mej lang...or feeling ko lang talaga...i need a weighing scale!!wooohooo! or tumatangkad daw...oh please Lord...ayoko na po....maawa kayo....
• puyat ako every friday...gimik?? ---not!!! mwehehe...

yun lang...trivial stuff...i miss writing these kinds of things...

posted by: blueberry010 at December 07, 2003 23:17 | link | comments |