i think im beautiful. and so im happy. i think i am loved. and so im happy. i am hungry. and so im sad. i think i am blessed. and so i am grateful. i think i am...i think...what do you think? hehehe...

posted by: blueberry010 at February 24, 2004 12:48 | link | comments (5) |

my first day at work went okay..the people were all nice..it was so cold inside I should always bring a jacket…I think I made more than a dozen trips to the bathroom…there are no “papables” because most of them are real “papas”..(hehe..whattaterm..:p) but that’s okay, I don’t need their attention anymore..(uuuuy!)…what else?? mmm…I don’t wanna pass thru GSC coz im tempted to look around and buy…Lord, help me..

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i’ve already read joshharris’ book not even a hint. finished it in one sitting. we didn’t have our youth fellowship this afternoon so I had to do something in church while waiting for my mom. and so I took the book from its plastic without asking permission from the owner(sorry k chad…sabi ni ate okay lang eh...hehe..) anyway the book was really good…Ü

it isn’t just about fighting lust or any sexual temptation..its generally about doing what is right before the eyes of our God..now I know why its  called ‘not even a hint’..i was once again reminded that we should not be tainted..not even a hint of immorality…there were times when I tend  to be legalistic with regards to my Christianity..i used to have guidelines for myself..sure, I would pattern them after the Bible..but in reality, as i evaluate now, that they’re just “my words” disguised as God’s…I need not rate my sin..i don’t have to weigh whether im sinning less or more than the other people…the mere fact that i do things God doesn’t want me too, I SIN..there is no grave sin or whatsoever..a sin is a sin is a sin... i sure didn’t fool God..it was just me I know…I was also reminded that God’s grace is more than sufficient to free me from the bondage of sin..that I should not rely on my own strength but solely on Him…so now, its goodbye “me”, say hello to God..Ü  shouldn’t that be the case all along?? I know, its just me..the devil lurks and makes be believe all the lies…but I don’t fear anymore, I know who’s got a hold of me..ÜÜÜ

posted by: blueberry010 at February 18, 2004 21:44 | link | comments (2) |

• yipee!!!!there's this nice pair sandals that i REALLY REALLY LOVE. i've been wanting to buy it for more than 5 months now but i just didnt have the money...but thank God for credit cards...i've finally got a hold of it. yahooo!!!
• i want a pair of beige hi-cut chuck's!!!! aaaaargh!
• dont mind me...im just in a kikay mode..hehe..

mode | kikay

music | hillsong - ever living God

posted by: blueberry010 at February 12, 2004 15:07 | link | comments (2) |
kikay not

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God is really good. Remember, I blogged about wanting Him to answer my prayer for a job, the next morning He did!!! I just didn’t tell you about it coz I wanted to make sure first. I received a call from the company whose job offer I actually turned down before because I knew I can’t do the job. Anyway, the person who interviewed me was going on a maternity leave so she was thinking of a replacement. I was so delighted because that means she must really like me. And so I went to the office for another interview, it went okay. The manager said they’d call me again and they just did yesterday. I’d start working on Monday so you might not “read” me regularly. I’d be working there for 3 months only so I’d be looking for another job after that. Atleast, I’d be out of the house. Not that I hate it here, its just that I’m beginning to get bored and I don’t wanna be wasted. The compensation is not that okay(atleast for me who’s thinking of doing some serious shopping after I get my first ‘real’ paycheck…hehe) but that’s okay. Atleast.

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There are things I know I should stop doing but I still keep on doing them. Grrrr.

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I really like the song “To the Ends of the Earth” by Hillsong. La lang.

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My back is really aching. I need help!!!

posted by: blueberry010 at February 11, 2004 22:16 | link | comments (1) |

B O U T.Y O U-
[my name is]: REAH
[in the morning i am]: ASLEEP
[love is]:  WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME
[i dream about]: ENGAGEMENT AND WEDDINGS
[my age is]: 20
[my dress sense is]: SIMPLY FASHIONABLE
[i like to think about]: MY WEDDING AND MY FUTURE FAMILY
[my most 'must have' thing is]: COMPUTER WITH AN INTERNET CONNECTION..PLUS LIP GELATTI AND POND’S BEAUTY POWDER

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: HEIGHT
[last person u slow danced with]: KIKO
[who has the nicest hair]: AKO?!
[who has the nicest smile]: SI “KOYA”
[who has the nicest body]: MARC NELSON

 -W H O-
[do you have a crush on?]: KEN NI BARBIE
[is easiest to talk to]: PLANTS
[makes you smile]: SIYA NA NGA..AND ETOY,NAV, AND JUJU!!!
[is the best]: MY FATHER
[do you wish to be]: A GOOD WIFE AND MOTHER

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: I’VE FALLEN BEFORE HE BECAME MY BEST FRIEND
[told a really bad lie]: YEAH BEBE
[been beatened up]: NASABUNUTAN NI INAY
[wished to have surgery to change your appearance]: YEAH..
[thought of suicide]: YEAH..ISIP LANG NAMAN EH.
[thought of death]: YEAH…I WATED TO DIE SOON PERO DI NA NGAYON…

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N- 
[you talked to on the phone]: TITA VILMA
[hugged]: ETOY
[you instant messaged]: WARREN
[you laughed with]: MOM AND DAD
[you laughed at]: ETOY
[who made you feel loved]:  KOYA

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U- 
[could you live without the computer?]: HINDEEEEEEE!!!!!!
[what's your favorite food?]: FRENCH FRIES!!!!!!
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: MANGO
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] EMOTIONAL..PHYSICAL PAIN SANDALI LANG..PWEDENG MAKALIMUTAN..EH YUNG SA EMOSYON..NAKOW!PWEDENG BUMALIK…
[trust others way too easily?]: NOT REALLY
[look upto others?]: YES

-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken?] MUNTIK NA PERO SINALO KO AGAD NI GOD
[of hearts i have broken?] : HMMM…DI NA MABILANG…HARHAR!
[people I've kissed?] : SA CHEEKS..DAMI…SA LIPS..DI PA RIN..
[of girls i have kissed?] :  SA PISNGI NGA!
[of drugs taken illegally?] : ZERO
[of tight friends?] : 7???
[of cd's that i own?] : EWAN..DAMI RIN…
[of scars on my body?] : 4
[of things in my past that i regret?] : HMMMMM….
[people u like]: LOTSALOTSA!!!

-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.- 
[i know]: THAT I AM MOST LOVED
[i want]: TO GET MARRIED NA…HEHE..
[i have]: A FATHER WHO LOVES ME SO
[i wish]: IM NOT THIS TALL..
[i hate]: BEING BLAMED RIN…
[i miss]: HIM AND CES
[i fear]: NOT BEING ABLE TO BEAR A CHILD
[i see]:  THE MONITOR
[i search]: FOR WHO AND WHAT GOD WANTS ME TO BE
[i love]: GOD , MY FAMILY, AND FRIENDS!!
[i ache]: MY BACK IS ACHING
[i care]: ABOUT KOYA SO MUCH
[i always]: SLEEP
[i dance]: WHEN IM ALONE…
[i cry]: EVERY NIGHT
[i do not always]: WATCH MY WORDS
[i write]: EVERYTIME I HAVE SOMETHING I WANNA SHARE
[i confuse]: MY SEXUALITY SOMETIMES…HARHAR!!
[i can usually be found]: UNDER THE STAIRS, IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER AND THE KITCHEN SINK
[i need]: OFFICE CLOTHES
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: WHEN I GET MARRIED!!!----HAHAHA! ATE IDA TALAGA!
[if so, when and with who]:  SHHHH…5 YEARS FROM NOW…
[favorite place to be kissed?]: KUNG PLACE NA LUGAR…MMMM…KAHIT SAN BASTA ALANG MAKAKAKITA…BODY PART…LIPS?!

-ARE YOU A-
[wuss]:  WHAT’S A WUSS?
[druggie]: HINDI
[gang member]: NO…PERO I’VE INTERVIEWED LOTS GANG MEMBERS..
[daydreamer]: OPKORS!
[alcoholic]: NAH…NEVER…
[freak]: JESUS FREAK
[brat]:  HINDI AH…ASK MY FAMILY…WEHEHE..
[sarcastic]: WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
[goody-goody]: YEAH
[angel]: YES..I THNK..
[devil]:  MINSAN SIGURO//
[friend]: I THINK SO
[shy]: ER….MINSAN..
[talkative]: HMMMM…..
[adventurous]: ADVENTUROUS NA MAHINHIN…HAHAHAHA!
[intelligent]: I THINK…

-Concerning.The.Friends.(You.Claim.To.Have)-
[impacted you the most spiritually]: NET AND TU CHAD
[wish you saw more often]: KOYA
[wish you could meet]: ECHO
[most sarcastic]: CE
[wish you knew better]: K
[knows you best]: ATE, NET, AND JOSHUA
[best outlook on life]: AKO?! HEHE..
[most paranoid]: CLAIRE..HEHEHE..

-Self-Analysis-
[your best feature/asset]: MMM…MY MIND…WAHAHAHAHA!!!
[your biggest flaw (personality)]: BEING TACTLESS
[most annoying thing you do]: NAMIMILIT NG TAO NA TAWAGAN AKO
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: HMMMM….
[describe your personality in one word]: CHOLERIC?!
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: FACE AND HEIGHT
[height]: IM TALL…AYOKO NA!!
[a smell that makes you smile]: HUGO BOSS…HIHIHI!
[a city you'd like to visit]: BASTA SA EUROPE!!
[a delicious dessert]: CHOCO MOUSSE
[a book you highly recommend]: BIBLE..HOPE FOR THE FLOWERS..PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE..
[the music you prefer while alone]: ACOUSTIC..WORSHIP SONGS..
[your favorite band]: ICS BAND!!! YEBAH!
[a film you could watch over and over]: LEGALLY BLONDE…SHREK..
[a TV show you watch regularly]: MGA SOAP OPERA DYAN..AT MGA SITCOMS…NYEK!
[you live in a]: BOX
{your transportation]: CAR DAPAT LAGI///EH PERO COMMUTER DIN AKO…
[your cologne or perfume]: GREEN CROSS..
[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: LOTSA BOXES

posted by: blueberry010 at February 10, 2004 16:27 | link | comments (2) |

I Promise

 

Lord You know my heart

And all my desires

And the secret things I never tell

Lord You know them well

 

Though I may be young

I see and understand

That at times like sheep we go astray

When things get out of hand

 

So I promise to be true to You

To live my life in purity as unto You

Waiting for the day

When I hear You say

here is the one I have created just for You

 

Until then oh  Lord

I will be content

Knowing that true love

Will come someday

It will only come from You

 

Cause I have seen the suffering

That  loneliness can cause

When we choose to give our love away

Without a righteous cause

 

Here’s one song that I love singing. I’d like to sing it someday in public not with a whole band, but just with someone(ÜÜÜ) playing it in the guitar. Just so the people would know the cry of my heart. I like the melody and the message of course. Plus, its not too high. I can sing it without trying too hard. You know, I can’t sing high notes so Jaci’s songs are so okay for me as compared to Rachel Lampa’s, or Stacie’s or Crystal Lewis’..or heck, Darlene Zcshech’s!!!

Anyway, I am surprised that the song is sometimes being played over Wave and Magic. I’ve heard them play it many times already. Glad to know that those radio stations play Christian songs like it. Actually, I’ve been hearing some of Jaci’s songs over Magic. Good.    

 

Why the song? Mmmm…Valentines is near. Wait, I’m not trying to be mushy here. Its just that I’m really happy. And I just want to share the message of the song with you. The song has already made me cry because somebody actually sang it for me. I was so frustrated that time so I just asked him to study the song. I wanted to sing it but surprise!surprise!, he sang it for me…as a gift. I cried because I felt that God was so good to me. Yun. No need to elaborate.  

 

I don’t have a boyfriend yet. It would be __ years from now before I officially become ___’s girlfriend (uuuy!).  I haven’t given my heart wholly to a guy. I almost did eons ago(ewww!) But good thing God took me away before I get really hurt. He made me realize so many things. God must be smiling when He was doing that because He has greater plans for me. Really.  ÜÜÜ  

 

I am just waiting for that day when God would tell me that “this” is the one. Maybe I have already met him, maybe not. Whatever I am in right now, I pray that God would continue to hold me. I dread the day that I’ll know otherwise. I dread the day that God would tell me that he has different plans. That would surely hurt. But I know that that is the future meant for me.  

 

mode | happy!!!

music | hillsong - need you here

posted by: blueberry010 at February 10, 2004 15:32 | link | comments |

ROTK

 

okay, I may be raving too late considering that most of my blogmates have already said something about ‘it’. the movie is definitely good.  is it my fault that I wasn’t so interested with it? even before, I just didn’t get into the lotr phenomenon. I saw the first film in vcd but just slept throught it. all I knew about it was there was this ring that for some reason landed in elijah wood character’s hands and that there was sauron who was anxious to have it. i didn’t manage to re-watch it and see the second film. as I’ve said, I was just not interested. there.

 

I did try reading the book though. im about to finish the first book actually.thank God. I wanted to read everything before I watch rotk but it would take me a lot of time. somebody bought a pirated vcd of rotk and I tried watching but it was so pangit. the copy I mean. of course, what do I expect?  I told myself that im definitely watching it in the big screen. and so I did together with my sis and her husband. twas such a bummer coz I have no one to cuddle with. hehe. twas so cold inside the moviehouse. my ate was actually worrying that I might die of hypothermia. harhar. the disadvantages of having no boyfriend. plus, megamall’s copy must have been gasgas na. really. kenis. pangit.

 

but twas okay, the movie was good. really good. It was good that I started reading the book so somehow I knew the characters and the story. my mind was oh so thinking a lot. I’ve had many realizations. I couldn’t help but notice (or atleast twas just me) that there were Christian themes in there. ha…cmon, tell me im overreacting. that im over-spiritualizing things? I just likened that war to the battle of armaggedon. the good vs the evil. I nearly cried because I remembered that I didn’t want my loved ones to be destroyed by evil. I was reminded that I should pray unceasingly for them.  

 

and then there was the part when Aragorn was being crowned. he looked liked Jesus diba? I just thought of the future. when finally good will triumph evil and that Jesus would reign. the dialogue sounded so biblical (or so I think?). and then there was Arwen brought before the new king, I likened her to the bride---us. when Christ and His bride would finally embrace because finally the time has come. and then the part when everybody else bowed down before the four great hobbits. aragorn said that they bow to no one. I just remembered what’s written in the Bible that ‘he who humbles himself shall be exalted’. the hobbits were small.they did great. they suffered much. but they however conquered evil. they’re like the humble. their suffering and humility paid off because they were exalted even by the king.

 

don’t blame me friends if I see the movie in that way. the movie, so good to be true, made me realize that I should go back to praying for my unsaved loved ones. i know that ‘the battle’ in the end of days is way worse than that. believe me. I know. it is written man.

 

another thing, a great friendship was shown in the movie. sam was such a bestfriend. i wish to have a friend like him. one who’ll never leave you even if you tell he to. but more than finding one, I think I wanna be more of a friend like him. (oooooh..i can imagine my ate blurting out on tv, “don’t look for the right person..be the right person”..hehe..)

 

great. the movie was just great. everything about it was great. sm cinema was just not.

posted by: blueberry010 at February 08, 2004 22:44 | link | comments (1) |