9:24 am
sunday

I feel so alone even when I know I'm in a place where joy is always present. It must be the hormones again. It must be the weather. It must be my body's temperature. Or maybe it's just my forgetful mind telling me to drown into nothingness and false solitude.

The enemy lurks. You know when he's hitting on you. Attacking the one called 'warrior'. I feel when he's near. I try to show him in ways unimaginable and unfathomable by mere mortal.

I see them. I look at the people who seem lost and empty with sympathy. A lot like---me. Sometimes. But the answer to all these lies in knowing that I've been called once and forever into a wonderful kingdom.

Yes. I've been, I am, and forever I will be.

posted by: blueberry010 at May 31, 2005 19:02 | link | comments |

 i should be getting on that plane. bummer. i hate this feeling so much. i know i should be giving up. but man, this really sucks. i hate. boohoo.

 i'm starting to hate the people responsible for this. but yeah, dont worry. this too shall pass. i can't stay mad at them for so long. and because of what's happening, i more than want to buy the things i've been wanting to buy just so to make me happy.

 i just dont get it.

 now, every word pierces through heart. i feel so lonely. this is weird.

 no amount of encouragement and explanation will make me understand. nevah.

 i just hope it's saturday already. sigh...

posted by: blueberry010 at May 24, 2005 07:25 | link | comments (2) |
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Ephesians 5:15-21 (NIV)

  ¹⁵Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, ¹⁶making the most of every    opportunity, because the days are evil. ¹⁷Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. ¹⁸Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. ¹⁹Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, ²⁰always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.  ²¹Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

posted by: blueberry010 at May 23, 2005 07:17 | link | comments |
the walk

...

i'm sorry but i really don't suck up to the those in authority...lately, i've been having good laugh(s?!?) because of them people..my eyes roll..my blood shoots up..but ha! i know where i stand..i know better than 'em ..

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i don't wanna be branded as this or that...when it comes to work or the academics, i always mean business...now, why can't some people respect that? i say what i think is right and wrong...

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three consecutive mornings with stripe..nice! if only i could come with him and his family to bora..but no, i am so depressed..really...i so hate it..i sulk...

posted by: blueberry010 at May 21, 2005 06:34 | link | comments |
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i am terribly disappointed. probably, a little bit angry...the last time i felt this way was when my first official website was copied by a friend. and now...im not sure yet...well....oh well...have to wait for tom...have to clarify some things first...

posted by: blueberry010 at May 19, 2005 22:55 | link | comments (2) |
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sundae cone ..tsalap! by the way, its 1:35 am..hehe...im hungry...cant wait for stripe to pick me up for our "lunch" date...lunch date in the morning...ha!

posted by: blueberry010 at May 19, 2005 01:37 | link | comments |
raves

GRRRR

I AM SEETHING WITH ANGER.

posted by: blueberry010 at May 12, 2005 10:39 | link | comments |
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